i log on to Pandora and switch to Tibetan Monks station and then i cross my legs on the red couch in the living room and close my eyes and breathe. it’s difficult to focus on the now. especially when the music gets interrupted by a commercial. i should pay that fee for commercial-less music. i remember when i would go to Yoga To the People with my friend/coworker Yas a few years back. i held so much anxiety in my body, my mind was constantly worrying. i couldn’t focus on the yoga. i was so blocked. i worked at RaptureVision then. i was in a bad place and in bad relationships. i have evolved so much in such a little amount of time. i miss Yas. the day after i quit my job at Rapture i met with him. he took me to The Dream House in Tribeca. it is a room with sound and light installations. there are purple and pink neon lights all over and the sounds are abstract, very atmospheric. there were pillows scattered about the room and we laid down on a couple of them and held hands and meditated. it was very comforting.